GrreenTea

the 2022 was a wacky year for me, not at all what I anticipated to be at its start and not what my fantasies lead me. I will admit, since it is already too late to keep the secret, that I was going to open a shop with my art, sell some originals and prints and have the life of an artist that I always aspired to have, but you can clearly see that I stopped drawing for some time and did not post at all for some time. I won't ever make any more promises that I will certainly come back now!! like, now!! I will be active and I will have commissions open and all of that!! nope xD that does not ever lead me to productivity xDD I just fell in love with crocheting so hard that I couldn't stop ever since I learned it around may. I will maybe someday post some of the stuff ive made since I think it's cool and im proud of myself. by the way, I'm so scared of what is becoming of deviantart and AI art, and that they used our own art without our permission, ever since the news dropped I am scared to post anything digital. I can't do that here, but that's my "main" gallery/portfolio, but that gallery is used to power something that I'm not supporting and that something does not give me any credit for that... eh, I won't be digging into that right now, I will have my great night ruined. I am happy that at least instagram doesn't source AI with our posts... but tbh I won't be suprised- OK OK im done with that topic.

my goals for this year within the art side of my life are not certain but one thing is for sure, that I will continue creating with traditional media and will crochet even more. I won't create any more pressure on me by setting a heavy goal like going fulltime with art, but it is still my dream... and I will take the opportunity when given. although I don't see it for now. I need to change the job that I currently have to a similar field but with more money, that is for certain and that will happen this year. other than that, I gained a lot of weight throughout the year, overall gained weight in quarantine and I'm on a track to change that~ I have a goal to loose 20kg this year, something what is VERY achievable given I'm already on a strict diet, since I try to understand what is going on with my insides/liver after eating something bad xD have a creative year~

All right, it was hard to choose the best one because each of these works is great and I dreaded this time xD as you probably already know I've held the same event on my instagram, only with other hashtag bc I celebrated getting 200 followers there, and here on deviantart I celebrated 1000, that's the only difference, prices and winners list is the same. but... -drumroll- I've chosen these works and these people:

1. First place - Sheltonee !!

2. Second place - gravenkid5113 on instagram! (no idea if they have a deviantart account)

3. Third place - WatermelonCreature !

Congrats to the winners! I will dm you all as soon as possible!! Prize list can be found on the original post with the DTIYS drawing. Thank you ALL for taking part!! (will announce on instagram a little late bc my phone is charging dfkjnv)

edit: closing them for now! ______________________________ Please ask if anything's not clear or if you maybe want any other type of commission!! https://chlebcomms.carrd.co/ < here you will find probably everything you need to know about my commissions~ prices, TOS, and more! (btw, I'm so late to having comm info on carrd.co, but this site is so cool. it's so easy to use. so if you're as late as I am, and you don't have anything like that, please consider!! I really recommend!) for now, let's open 3 slots: 1. 2. 3. if you're interested and didn't get a chance to hop in to the slots, please let me know here in the comments or in dms, I have a waitlist!! https://chlebcomms.carrd.co/#waitlist

hi! i posted an art summary of 2021 in a form of all timelapses that ive saved on my ipad the last year. these were only a few, but the video is almost 20 minutes long xD https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i8gBP9bqsRY hope you like and have a nice chill day!

(sorry, its going to be a long read) Remember when I said I was going to come back someday? Remember that I was offline for two years, and before that I was on and off of the internet for a long time? I need to admit to something. Throughout the last years of me being stagnant, skipping through new jobs, changing living places, trying to figure out life, I had no mental strengh to return to the internet. I had no interest in hearing/reading even more negative things to add to the mountain of changes, unstability, depression that was clouding my and my closest ones lives. Heck, even now if I see anything negative, any drama that is happening and people being really nasty, angry over the comments, wishing death to each other... its too much for me. Its repulsive. Im too tired to hear these things. I think most of people are. I don't remember what triggered that in me but it is like that for some time now. So that is the thing that keeps me, or I guess kept me from being active and communicative on the internet. I hate social media. Its ironic because its because of them I am doing what im doing. Im using deviantart, using instagram to post my art and share my thoughts with you. I would watch youtube mindlessly for days and ignore notifications from these two, just because I didn't want to... idk, contribute to these platforms? I also was scared as hell. I dont know why! xD I don't get much hate from anyone... so it was just so stupid. I also didnt want to start scrolling and see all of this stuff that upsets me. So when I wasn't active... I was hiding. If ill tell you I regret not being active and creative then... Its an understatement. If I could see my younger self and tell her anything, it would be that... Please. Invest more time in your passion. It will be so worth it. Dont get down on yourself that easy because of your job and life. Remember that you have this escape from reality that is your art. It can help you wonders, can help you move on from some hard truths and can heal you. That way you practive your skill more and that can be very. Useful. With that came a massive artblock that was only fueled more by moving and changing jobs, and then getting a doggy that was really sick and was in need of immediate help. I was kinda finishing all of these commissions and art trades I was supposed to do many months ago for people, so I got this going for me which is nice. Apart from that I was really rarely drawing - which is why I regressed and stayed in the same place with my skills for a long time. Sometime in march this year I had a thought. I need to change something. Im in a dead end job, I can't get a raise for the death of me, and Im on the marry way to lost my passion that fueled me for so many years. I was going to change my job around june, I was just on the way to the first meeting for recruitment - and something just stopped me hahah My brain was like... youre not going to do THAT. Youre not going to waste more of your best young years on investing in a skill you hate doing. Better invest in something you LOVE. You're going to focus on fully returning to the internet and developing your art accounts from the start, once again. so welp here I am this is me This is what was going on with me. I hope to lit this fire under by butt once again. I hope to not get down because of some stupid excuses and treat THIS, this what I have here, my talent, my happy place, like one of the MOST IMPORTANT THING i have. Im thankful for that decision. Im thankful that this moment came when I finally realised I can be soon too old to pick up all of this back again and just do it now, tomorrow can be too late. After that decision I didnt regret any drawing that I did and i never questioned this decision. However pseudo-poetic that may sound like xD Its now or never. _______________

As for a small life update - I don't know what number this flat is, but I moved xD Im still living with my bf, doggy and our friend and this large flat so everybody can have some space for themselves. I still work in the same workplace that I worked at the last time I gave you a life update, but on a new project which is much less demanding and Im hopin to stay here for some time. The last project sucked the life out of me so im glad im at this one now. Im still obsessed over plants, my doggy is still in need of surgeries (did one on her already), so this is not changed... Im intensely drawing on my ipad on procreate, however i'd like to mix and match between sai and procreate sometime, i miss sai.

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Where you can find me posting wips and being probably more active on my traditional art and sketchbooks most importantly, and being more personal: instagram.com/chleb_sama/

See ya~!